Lost and Found: A Novel - Chapter Five.
London/Paris 1978.
Tom Bain had come to feel sorry for the Marquis de Bouille, as far as you can feel sorry for a man who had been dead for almost two hundred years. The marquis was the only person mentioned by name in the French national anthem La Marseillaise. He was not just mentioned, but denounced as an agent of despotism, an oppressor of the people. It was to the army of Bouille that King Louis XVI and Queen Marie Antoinette had been fleeing in 1791 to escape Paris, where they were almost prisoners of the French revolutionaries. Unfortunately their coach had been halted at Varennes, and the royal couple were sent back to the capital. With his role in the escape plot quickly discovered, Bouille was forced to flee into exile. He eventually died in London in 1800, with his body only being returned to France sixty years later.
However, the sad end of the marquis was not Tom's concern. He was researching the glory days of Bouille's career, when he was the terror of the British in the West Indies during the American War of Independence. The papers left by the marquis were in Paris and Tom was anxious to examine them for his doctoral thesis. He had hoped to get a travel grant from his Oxford college, but his application had been unsuccessful. Then Tom's father had given him some money that should just be enough to cover the costs of his trip if he was careful. Letters went back and forth across the Channel and everything seemed to have been arranged. A room in a cheap hotel had been booked and the Paris library holding the papers had been alerted to Tom's coming visit.
The cheapest way to get to Paris was by coach. So in September 1978 Tom set out from Victoria Coach Station in London. At Dover the coach went onto a large hovercraft after the passengers had disembarked and taken their seats inside the craft. The passage across the English Channel was bumpy and noisy, and because of the spray thrown up by the hovercraft, Tom could see almost nothing through the porthole beside his seat. Tom was never a good sailor, but he kept his feeling of nausea under control. Once Calais had been reached, everyone got back on the coach. Tom thought of this trip as his first real visit to France. He knew his parents had taken him on a day trip to Calais (or was it Boulogne?) when he was six or seven years old, but he could remember nothing about it.
Near Arras the coach turned off the main road and stopped at a small cafe. It was lunchtime, so the passengers would have the chance to get some food and drink. Tom did not feel hungry. On the other side of the road were some war cemeteries. The larger enclosure, filled with white crosses, contained fallen French soldiers. Beside it was a smaller British cemetery, with plain white headstones. All the fallen came from the First World War.
Tom crossed the road and wandered among the British war graves, most of which dated from 1917. One line of gravestones particularly caught Tom's attention. All the dead soldiers were from the same regiment and died on the same day. Most were privates, aged eighteen or nineteen, but one was an officer, a lieutenant, aged twenty-one, which made him two years younger than Tom. Perhaps the young officer had led his men in some desperate attack, with all of them dying together in a hail of machine gun bullets. Tom thought of his Scottish grandfather who he had never known. Private Bain of the Black Watch had been badly gassed on a French battlefield in 1917 and never fully recovered. He died in the late 1930s when Tom's father was a teenager.
Tom had noticed two English girls of about his own age on the coach. One was very pretty - and knew it - while her friend was rather plain. The pretty girl talked a lot, but her friend said little, content to be the perfect travelling companion. As the passengers got back on the coach after the cafe stop, the pretty girl seemed to notice Tom for the first time.
'Hello, I'm Julie', she said to Tom. 'My friend and I are going to Paris to look at fashions.'
'I'm Tom. Paris is certainly the right place for that.'
'My mother has a dress shop in London', continued Julie. 'In the King's Road, Chelsea. We're going to look at what there is in Paris and maybe bring back some samples, if they're not too expensive.'
'It sounds like a busy trip for you. Will you have time to look around the city?', asked Tom.
'Of course', replied Julie. Then she lowered her voice as if somebody might overhear their conversation: 'In fact this is really just a holiday for me and my friend cunningly disguised as a business trip.'
'Lots to see in Paris', mused Tom.
'You mean the Eiffel Tower or the Louvre?', said Julie. 'Heavens, I don't care about those tourist traps. We want to go to the discos, sample some of the night life, sample some of the French men. They're so sexy - not boring like English men.'
Julie winked at her friend. Tom tried not to look too offended. He took off his glasses and wiped the lenses with his handkerchief as a distraction.
Julie realised what she had said, but showed no remorse. She asked why Tom was going to Paris and he told her. Julie listened politely, but Tom knew he was only confirming her prejudices about English men. Julie turned to her friend and said something Tom could not quite hear. Her friend rolled her eyes. Both girls laughed - at Tom's expense no doubt. Julie and Tom continued to talk for a little while longer, but then Julie directed all her conversation to her friend. Tom had been dismissed. He was just another boring Englishman.
Not for the first time Tom retreated into silence, defeated by the ladies. He had lost his virginity with a girl at school when he was seventeen, but had never managed any long term romances since then. A year ago Tom had been desperately pursuing a girl student at Oxford. He even took her to a college ball, but in the end she had rejected him. Which made it all the sweeter when he then met a pretty girl when he was on a holiday visit to his relatives in Wales. She had been very obliging! But once again it was all short lived, just a holiday romance. Tom had put a couple of condoms in his wash bag, but it was just hopeful bravado. For the next few weeks he expected to spend more time with a dead French aristocrat than a live French girl.
It was evening when the coach finally arrived at the terminus near the Gare du Nord in Paris. The passengers disembarked, with Julie and her friend disappearing into the city crowds without another word or a backward glance for Tom. Struggling with his suitcase, Tom got onto the metro, and, after finding himself on the wrong line twice, he eventually reached the Cardinal Lemoine metro station on the Left Bank. It was almost dark when he reached his hotel. In his best French he explained that he had already booked a room. The man behind the front desk just shrugged and said the hotel was full. Tom angrily produced the letter from the hotel which confirmed his booking. The man at the desk was not impressed. He glanced at the letter and then repeated his assertion that the hotel was full.
Tom demanded to see the manager.
'I am the manager', said the man. 'There are plenty of hotels in this area. Go and find a room in one of them.'
Tom remonstrated again. The manager looked annoyed. Finally he hissed at Tom: 'Get the hell out of here or I'll call the cops.'
Defeated, Tom went out into the dark streets. He felt exhausted, but he had to struggle along with his suitcase and find a room as soon as possible. Tom went to another hotel, but the staff said all of its rooms were occupied. August was the height of the holiday season in Paris. Surely in September there must be some hotels with vacant rooms. The third hotel that Tom tried was on a street corner. Even in the poor light cast by a nearby street lamp, Tom could tell it was a run-down place, with paint peeling from the window frames and damp stains on the outer walls.
Tom went into the hotel lobby. It was empty except for a man seated in a chair behind the front desk. He was reading a newspaper. A lit cigarette hung from one corner of his mouth. He was a short, strongly built man, probably in his fifties. His face was lined and battered. Perhaps he had been a boxer, thought Tom. The man ignored Tom when he presented himself at the desk.
'I would like a room', said Tom.
The man continued to focus all his attention on his newspaper, only pausing for a moment to remove his cigarette, knock some ash from it onto the dirty linoleum covering the floor, and then put the cigarette back in his mouth.
'I would like a room', repeated Tom.
'I heard you', said the man.
Still keeping his eyes on his paper, the man half turned in his seat and reached back to a rack of small wooden boxes on the wall behind him. Some had keys hanging from hooks below the boxes. The man unhooked one, turned in his seat, and slapped the key down on the desktop in front of Tom.
The man now wearily got to his feet and went through the process of checking Tom in. The charge for the room was much lower than at the hotel where Tom had originally been booked, but the man insisted that Tom should pay for a week's residence in advance. As Tom sorted through the bundle of francs in his wallet, the man slumped back in his chair and returned to reading his newspaper. He just nodded as Tom put the required sum on the desktop.
There was of course no lift in this little hotel. Tom dragged his suitcase up several flights of stairs and then found his room. He could only vaguely discern its contents at first as the overhead light was defective, flickering for a while when Tom turned it on, then ceasing to function. Fortunately Tom had enough time to find a table lamp which did work. A large bed almost filled the room. There was a cracked wash basin on one wall with a grubby mirror above it. The room smelled of damp, but far worse was the smell from the toilet which was sited opposite the door to Tom's room. At the moment Tom could not have cared less. He was so tired he just put down his suitcase, fell onto the bed, fully clothed, and was soon asleep.